sigh. another stupid day just went by. okay. not that stupid afterall. it's quite a happy one~ lala. just that there's this THING bothering me. grr.

okay. so today is teacher's day celebrations. hoho. i had a budget of $20 for two teachers. lwl and ms tan. haha. end up i spent all on ms tan and ms lau dun have. ok. sorry miss lau ^^ yupp. so i nthe end i spent like $20 on ms tan. grr. and my smurfy which i got her was in this rectangular plastic transparent box. with orange paper shreadings underneath. and it seriously looks like it was dead la. like lying in the coffin. omg. so damn funny. okay.

aces day in the morning was full of crap. our class is always so suay to keep getting caught by that freakin teacher for not doing the workouts properly. like -.- la please. who wanna flush the freakin toilet after pooooting. after tat had house elections. quite dumb though. sitting in the air conless pat and rotting la. i was nearly sleeeping. recess was nice. less ppl in the canteen cause lots of ppl went to be santa clause. hohoho. i wish u a merry christmas~ i wish u a merry christmas~ haha. pardon me. i am being super lame here.

THANKYOU YANTING!! THANKYOU YANTING SO MUCH. THANKYOU FOR MAKING MY DREAM COME TRUEEEE~! haha. yanting is my life saver. must go thank her k. after my recess i ended up being santa clause. went round giving my one pathatic pressie. i'll just be so happy if she doesn't kill me for killin her darling smurfy. oh well. the queue for the black intercom telephone was sooooo bloody long. me being a corrupted councillor decided to cut queue. those guai councillors infront prevented me from doing so. grr. oh well. waited for so long before i got to miss tan. btw. i was ushering her. ^^ ooh. i <333333333 the 1s2's card. it's so NICE. so RED. so HEARTY. so SWEET. so ROMANTIC. so AWWWWWW. anw i found out during the short little ushering trip from the mini forum to the hall that...




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I GOT ACCEPTED INTO ENTERPRISE CLUB. WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO~













BYE LD. haha. i can't wait. oohlala. but it's so heartless to leave my darling senior(s). darling junior(s) and esp rudee behind. sorry sec 2s. i dun miss u though. wahahahahaha. piff. fine. i am being super evil here. oh well. i just can't wait!!! enterprise. here i come. WHEEE.















okay. u know smth. i found out that some bloody people cant be trusted. i dunno why. esp U PEOPLE from LD. i can't tell ur secrets anymore. piff. it's ALL UR FAULT. SEEELA. happy?! I'M SURE U KNOW WHO U ARE U GUILTY GORRILA. i dun mean the whole club. just this GROUP OF IDIOTS. grrr. they just can't see things properly. it's either that or they just wanna spread this kind of things bout me. FINE LA. PIFF. WTH. how can u ppl listen "eh. i like her. i think she's nice" to "I STALKED HER ALL THE WAY HOME" f*** la. i feel so vulgar today. and now what? mr m knows. and even SHE knows. HAPPY NOW?!?! GREAT LA. WTH. why can't u like someone. wrong meh!? it's infactuation. SHIT U. #$%^&*()(*&^%$#$%*&^*&%#$(&)(@(*%^*(&#^*&#^&#(*&(*&(^#(*&^(############*&#(*@


piff. now she's scared. and i feel so bad. what if there's really a stalker out there? and the whole student population knows. and later the whole staff room will know. and i'll get sent for councilling. and it's like WTH. i DIDN'T STALK HER. I DIDN'T. I JUST SAID I LIKE HER CAUSE SHE'S NICE. U FREKAIN IDIOTIC MARONIC ASSHOLIC BABOOOOONS. I HATE YOU. GET LOST BEFORE U GET SMACKED AND WHACKED AND FLATERN BY MY GIGANTIC FOOT. SHOO. EVIL MEANIE POK. OOHLALA~
i haven been blogging for long though.
I JSUT KONW THAT SHE SCH UNBLOCKED BLOGGER.
WOOOOOOOOOOOSH~

i love the tablet to bits and pieces. <33 crap. so many things going on in my life these few days. i've been busy with ro. and aad. and council wrap present shit. and rciy chalet. and my aunt being pregnant. and panicking over my results. and think of names for my aunt's future kid. and spying. and fraring that she would know. and trying to edit my compo so that it won't sound mushy, corny and romantic. grrr.

taking bout compo. we were supposed to write bout our favourite teacher in chinese. and u wouldn't wanna know who i wrote. i wrote word for word. on my life experiences please. and now i realise that it's a big big big big BIG mistake. now sijing is laughing at me. and qixuan too. for it being so corny. and mushy. and lovey. and romantic. and sounding so sick la. grrr. shit la. i wonder after she reads it will she know. bleh.

yah. and my aunt called me. and told me that she's pregnant. ggreat la. any suggestions for names? girl and boy oso can. but not some orbit names like peter. paul. jennifer. agatha. this kind la. if ur name is peter. paul. jennifer. agatha. den sorry. no offence meant. >< sigh. i haven beeen blogging for a long long time.
stupid freakin newspaper articles. grrr.
i miss ro~
lalala~..

i think i'm such a lousy spy. =X lau can spy better then me. grr. i din even see her outdoors. piffpiff. lau saw. with jimbo. aw. jimbo + tanbo = happy ending. wubwub sigh. i'm just so freaking jealous today. so freakin jealous. just found out a big big news. well. big big news for me though. i just found out stuff. stuff which i wanted to do. but no. i didn't get the chance to do it. so the OTHER person had that chance. and yah. i'm pissed. i'm freakin jealous. pmsing. so don't come and ka chiao me. -.-

common test's over. yay! hahas. well. just that i have 20 newspapers articles to do by nxt weeek. plus training on ro. plus stupid stupid stupid dnt test. piff. i don't care anyway. chinese common test results are out. piff. din get what i wanted. oh well. and i'm su glad i got one more mark. after begging her so much. that one mark makes a difference to my grade. sigh. third in class. hmm. not that bad afterall i guess. managed to pull myself back up. shall try harder the next time though. but as i say, it all depends on luck. all depends on luck. i'm just so lucky that the deng ta which was lighthouse. which i though it was lamp post all along didn't affect my grades much. sigh.

harry potter's really stupid? i think the 6th book is getting lamer and lamer. blehhh. i'm gonna read my chickeee soup. =P WHEEEEEEEEEE~
i am feeeling hyper.
WOOOOOTS~
hyper.
WOOOOTS~
lalalalalalalala.. HOHOHO. HOHOHO. HOHOHO.
LALALALALALA~
I FIGURED OUT HOW TO HACK.

hohohohoho. the no.1 hacker in the whole wide world. ME! lalalas. i am getting hyper.
this time hacking gave not much big info though. just some blog posts? and yah. basically i can't rely on mlg for lit now. cause apparently some things are now in hardcopy format and i can no longer get access to them. piffff. I AM SO GONNA FAIL LIT TMR. AHHHH. HELP!! >.<

today's common test was rubbish. nothing but crap. it's like english and science and chinese. and you only can study science. AHHH. i feel so insecure without my shouce. HELP. i miss my shouce. i miss memorising the meaning of the words. i miss staring at the zao zu and falling asleep. i miss the old exam paper. ah bish. now i feel so insecure without my shou ce. i can't get any marks secured. now i am insecure. what shit am i talking? sigh. oh well. today's chinese paper made me faint. they were talking bout CHICKEN BONES?! and what BEIYING thing. and on how to teach life concepts with STORIES. i was like WTH la. left with 10min to finish the LAST LAST compre. scribbled like shit. and now i think my maRKS are gonna be so shitty.

fine la. i won't be top anymore. fine la. i don't give a damn. oh. yes. i don't give a damn. hurmph. *walks off in childish way*


PIFFFF. ME AND MY MISERABLE LIFE. >.< gahh. now i feel so freakin depressed. piff. it's getting nuts in here.

i am stressed up. why? cause of damn damn common test. and piff. i get so jealous cause i got no work to do. and i must go for audi. wahahas. fine. i don't mind audi. i seriously hope i can get in. bwahahs. ((: why doesn't the world listens? no one seem to care though. i am just this invisible floaty ghostly irritating crappy pervo shadow following everyone behind their backs. it's just weird that me being super hyper and stuff, when i get depressed, no one seem to like bother? and everyone just talk and continue their conversation without me. so i will soon be back to my invisible floaty ghostly irritating crappy pervo shadow that floats behind every elses back. but it's just so weird and it's a different story when airika doesn't talk. airika is erm.. doesn't talk much? doesn't get hyper fast? hahas. no offence though. but when she shuts up for 10min, everyone else will think like "gosh. airika's daoing me. help!" kinddaf thing. and when i shut up for one whole day, no one even goes like "gosh. pearlyn's daoing me. help!". -.- i feel so useless.


lol. trying super hard to forget ahem. actually i don't even think i eyecandified her in the 1st place. i just like her attitute, her posture, her cuteness, her niceness and all. not as if i want her to be my s** partner. i'm not that pervo though. and it's really hard to like erase the "i am bi image from my friends head" they keep thinking i'm les and stuff. when i'm like NOT. i still like guys though. hahas. and no one just seem to believe that i am just like that. NOT unstraight. sigh. i'm trying my real best to forget bout her. although i still got this thing into poking poking poking into her life. hohoho. evil me~. so with this les image in my frens head, i am not allowed to pull my friends blouse and warn her when azlin is around and ask her to tuck in? WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT?!? they say they get wrong intentions when i do that. cause they think i'm a les. and i wanna do something with my friend. like please la. i am not a freak for show k. so stop treating me like a freak on show. for u ppl to laugh at. for u ppl to whack. for u ppl to hit. for u ppl to make a big joke out of me.


i'm just this inquisive girl. who likes to poke into other people's life. who like to bug u ppl with questions about ahem. but i'm trying my best to get rid of her in my mind. it's bad for mental health. hohoho~ irritating some would say. but i thought friends were supposed to share. i thought friends would fill others in with stuff they missed. i thought friends would look out for one another. where is this kind of friend i am looking for? i repeat. i am not a freak for show. and u better read this. u people. all 6 of you. i'm just so sick of this.



shit. now i'm so worried bout my cca. if she noes, den i will never get in. not even a 0.00001% chance. if she doesn't, i guess i got 50%. hmm.

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to show my sincerity, i typed all this out by myself. no copy and paste. believe it or not. hoho. pearlyn's believe it or not. how bout that? like it?










AT 6.25PM 3 AUGUST 2005 I TRIED TO ERASE HER life. what can i say bout it. it sucks basically. the whole world seems so wrong. u feel happy one second. and the next second u feel sad. and the next u feel lonely. den u feel hyper. den u feel mad. and u feel pissed. after that u feel hyper again. and u feel sad. GAH. i felt all this today. like WHATS THE PROBLEM WITH ME?!?


i saw ahem today. i was walking from the canteen to the gblock past the dustbin area. ahem was walking from the bookshop to the gblock. that patch of road. i knew that if we maintain the speed we walk, i would bump into her. i was waiting for that moment to come. waiting and waiting desperately. just out of nowhere, ahem just started walking super fast. i dunno why. just super fast. is she avoiding me? and she clibmed the stairs 2 at a time. she usually climb 1 step each time. is she avoiding me? does she really know? is she avoiding me?



i love the bluesky photos! wooooots~ hahas. fine. i look retard in them though. jane ruth and airika looked damn cute!! ahhhhh~ oh well. some dumb photos. and MISS SHERVON!! why din u send me the photos? sobs. i am gonna bug you. bug you. bug you. till i get it. bwahahahahahas.



my instincts tells me that ahem 100% dunno that i like her yet. my mind and brain tells me that it's 50/50 that she noes. and my friends tell me that from her actions, she 100% noes. who should i believe?


it's a misery. my life. it's been like 2 straight days since i told her something. i seriously thinks she hates me. but i shall not let her affect my life. i have my life. she has hers. gah. what should i do with my life? someone help. hear my call. hear my shout. let's jump. I CAN'T SLEEP TONIGHT.
SHE NOES MY DEEPEST DARKEST SECRET.
SHE FOUND OUT.
SHE NOES IT.
I AM SOOOOOO FREAKIN SCREWED.
THERES NO WAY I'M GONNA FACE HER AGAIN.
NO WAY WITH THAT SAME LOOK.
IT'S GONNA BE A WHOLE NEW DIFFERENT STORY FROM NOW ON.
HELP ME.
SAVE ME.
I AM JUST SO DEAD.
I AM GOING TO GET IGNORED FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
I AM GOING TO JUST JUMP DOWN AND DIE.
I AM GOING TO COMMIT SUICIDE.
SHE NOES IT.
SHE NOES IT.
SHE NOES IT.
SHE NOES IT.
I AM DEAD.
I AM DEAD.
I AM DEAD.
HOW CAN I SURVIVE LIKE THAT?
SOMEONE HELP ME ON MY LAST JOURNEY.
IN SEARCH FOR TRUE HOPE.
TRUE FAITH.
TRUE LOVE.



















LET ME JUST ROT AND DIE.
I DON'T WANNA SEE HER ANY LONGER.
















MISERABLE ME. crap. i seem to be pmsing these few days. but not possible leh. how can i pms? oh well. life isn't worth living for. no point in living on anymore.

i use to think that if all my other subjects fall, i still have chinese to lean on. now, never. i feel like i'm no where. such a big fat loser. i hate moe please. why must they change the freakin format of the chinese paper? now instead of dominating the subject, i suck at it. piff. fine la. for all i care. it's just a stupid paper, stupid b4 anyway. grr. i feel like a ball. omg. the whole class has just won me in a damn paper. i think i sound super duper kiasu. but who cares. i care bout this subject k. it's liek the only one i'm confident about. i am gonna care bout it. i am determined not to let a TOOTY DOOTY be the top in class. bwahahahas. evil me. -.- i'm like a ball. u push me down and i'll bounce back higher for you to see. just watch me. and BYE TOOOTY DOOOTY. (((:


*i just got my dose of self-ego today*



i finally know what this period i'm going through is all about. it's called INFATUATION. u start to like a person. den after tat go crazy bout the person. den u start to hate the person. and after that u forget the person. i think i'm somewhat in between crazy and hate. sigh. she does't care bout me. so why should i care bout her? spying is nice. nice nice experience. i got the right to spy. why? cause she invaded my thoughts. so it's fair that i go invade her land right? teeehee. ((:
but i can't bare to hate her. she's just so nice. i seriously hope this period will end soon.



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